urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd ...honey put on that party dress, buy me a drink, sing me a song Beth 2005-08-10T00:32:33Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:27147 2005-08-10T00:32:33Z 2005-08-10T00:32:33Z semi-new/rediscovered obsessions:<br /><br />hopelessly by train (one of the most amazing songs ever, sung by one of the most beautiful voices ever.)<br />i can't make you love me by bonnie raitt<br />addicted by kelly clarkson<br />the reason why by rachael yamagata<br />charm attack by leona ness<br />crystal village by pete yorn<br />breathe by anna nalick<br />dance with me by 112 (ahhh sweet memories of teen scene) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:26892 2005-08-06T20:50:02Z 2005-08-06T20:50:02Z bright eyes-lua Yesterday-warped tour-was so much fun. I love music.<br /><br />It's really sad that summer is over because it was just getting fun. Although I am excited to find out what senior year has in store for us I just wish we could spend a few more weeks like this.<br /><br /><br /><br />I know that it is freezing, but I think we have to walk<br />I keep waving at the taxis, they keep turning their lights off<br />But Julie knows a party at some actor's West side loft<br />Supplies are endless in the evening by the morning they'll be gone<br /><br />When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend<br />I'll get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations<br />with the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection<br />The mask I polish in the evening by the morning looks like shit<br /><br />And I know you have a heavy heart, I can feel it when we kiss<br />So many men stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it<br />But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to split<br />The love I sell you in the evening by the morning won't exist<br /><br />You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black<br />Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back<br />Well, it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad<br />But what's so easy in the evening by the morning's such a drag<br /><br />I got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train<br />And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same<br />We may die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain<br />But what was normal in the evening by the morning seems insane<br /><br />And I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this<br />The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did<br />It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live<br />Cause what is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is<br /><br />And what's so simple in the moonlight now it's so complicated<br />And what's so simple in the moonlight, so simple in the moonlight<br />So simple in the moonlight... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:26647 2005-07-23T04:01:17Z 2005-07-23T04:01:17Z jack's mannequin woo new addiction...jack's mannequin. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:26381 2005-07-09T03:29:24Z 2005-07-09T03:29:24Z "Love. I would ban the word from the vocabulary. Such imprecision. Love, which love, what love? Sentiment, fantasy, longing, lust? Obsession, devouring need?...Love is a bedtime story, a teddy bear, familiar, one eye missing...Love is a toy, a token, a scented handkerchief...Love is a check that can be forged, that can be cashed. Love is a payment that comes due." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:26159 2005-07-07T01:59:19Z 2005-07-07T02:01:12Z <img src="http://www.sport.co.ba/uplImages/rodickandy.jpg" alt="one day we will wed." /><br />one day we will wed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:25940 2005-07-02T03:42:50Z 2005-07-02T03:42:50Z annie got a tattoo. im so jealous. she always was the better one. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:25763 2005-06-19T16:04:30Z 2005-06-19T16:04:30Z foo fighters-best of you so last night me stace alex and his friends went to mattison's and it was sooo delish. i loved it, we gotta go there more often. then we rented blow and watched it with mer and leah. good movie. i can't believe it's a true story, gosh what an insane life. that was one looong movie though so we didn't get to bed till 2ish and had to get up at 9 for father's day breakfast. eek i've gotten so used to at least 11 hours sleep each night that 7 just didn't cut it and now im exhausted. i'm so excited for our camping trip! yey we leave thursday! and we got a tent, thank god! it wasn't look too good for a minute there. i'm in love with the video for best of you. and i really want to go back to the Guggenheim. i'm obsessed with Anna Gaskell. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:25429 2005-05-29T00:40:11Z 2005-05-29T01:00:30Z feels like home ay yi yi....tomorrow i leave at 5 o-frickin-clock in the morn. i'm really excited cuz i know it will be so much fun but im also scared cuz i dont want anything to change while i'm gone, not that i have any reason to believe that anything will change...i just like the way things are now. oh well you kids have fun and ill see you in 9 days!<br> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:25164 2005-05-17T01:16:03Z 2005-05-17T01:24:25Z A - Age you got your first kiss: 13? or 14?<br />B - Band listening to right now: deathcab for cutie<br />C - Crush: you<br />D - Dad's name: jim<br />E - Easiest person to talk to: stacy<br />F - Favorite band at the moment?: hmm at the moment...my chemical romance<br />G - Gummy worms or Gummy bears?: worms fo sho<br />H - Hometown: chicago<br />I - Instruments: piano<br />J - Joyous memory: going to the christmas eve parties that the simonsons would have every year and playing flashlight tag with katie and the kanes and buring tortilla chips in the candles with erin and annie.<br />K - Kids: what about them? at this point i claim never to want to have kids, but i know i will.<br />L - Longest car ride ever: moving here from wisconsin when i was 8...annie and i were really pissed at our parents the whole time cuz we thought that moving was the end of our lives...now i thank god im not still living in that ho-dunk town of like 700.<br />M - Mom's name: sue<br />N - Number of piercings: 7<br />O - One wish: that friendships would last forever.<br />P - Phobia[s]: hm...big gross bugs, small confined spaces, dirty food or eating things that aren't meant to be eaten, insane people<br />Q - Quote: "You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, 'Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other,' because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness. You call yourself a free spirit, a 'wild thing,' and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."<br />R - Reason to smile: i dunno...anything!<br />S - Song you sang last: singing along with the friends theme while watching tv<br />T - Time you woke up: 7ish<br />U - Unknown fact about me: when i was little, like 4 or 5, i used to get upset because i couldn't decide if i wanted to be a doctor or one of those clowns that makes balloon animals when i grew up.<br />V - Vegetable you hate: i hate those leafy greens that they make some salads out of, you know the ones that look like they've just been plucked from the tree outside? who wants to eat that!? i feel like a giraffe when i eat that stuff and it tastes nast.<br />W - Worst habit(s): i dunno? i can't think of any habits i have, although im sure there are many.<br />X - X-rays you've had: none. never been in a hospital actually.<br />Y - Yummy food: strawberries, blueberries, grapes, margarita pizza from california pizza kitchen, ravioli, salt and vinegar chips, pizza goldfish, swedish fish...the list goes on and on.<br />Z - Zodiac sign: aries urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:24961 2005-05-17T00:35:40Z 2005-05-17T00:35:40Z yanni (yes i listen to piano music...and i enjoy it) I can not wait for this week to be over...ay i just want to skip it all...the 2 finals, rice presentation, and 2 janoff papers. ugh. but i just keep telling myself that the sooner i get it all out of the way, the sooner it is summer and i'm off grounding!! woo!! so exciting.<br /><br />aww my dad is gonna cook my breakfast in the morning to see if it helps the headache i get every afternoon. how considerate of him.<br /><br />i know its a little early...but im starting to panic already about getting into college. everyone keeps telling me how impossible it is to get into california schools from out of state and, to say the least, that just isnt boosting my confidence. i lay in bed and just worry about not getting into any schools i want to go to and then what will i do!? ayyy yi yi i'll just hafta try and not focus on that until the time comes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:24746 2005-05-12T01:55:01Z 2005-05-12T01:56:23Z konstantine<33333 so seeing as im in the best mood ive been in in about 5 weeks im taking this opportunity to do the impossible...update! dun dun dun!<br /><br />had a dominican meeting tonight...it got me all pumped up and im so freaking excited to go again! last time was probably the best trip ive ever gone on (ok well equal with spain&lt;3) and i just cant wait to do it again! i feel like a good person lol, plus the people rock and its just amazing.<br /><br />im also gonna go stay with andrea for a bit over the summer and then off to california to visit USC and UCLA and hopefully stay with annie for a while since shes staying in berk this summer! ah the prospect of getting away from here is just so thrilling!<br /><br />but for now im just trying to get through 7 more days of school. then we're seniors! sheesh this is all so fast...i still think of myself as a blonde little girl with a queer northern accent. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:24449 2005-04-09T17:05:23Z 2005-04-09T17:05:23Z crossfade-so far away not having a car suuuuuucks! i cant do anything. im sitting here like a hermit with no where to go. god im so bored, and sick of this place. how i envy annie... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:24184 2005-04-07T19:23:27Z 2005-04-07T19:23:27Z I suck at life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:24011 2005-04-06T22:55:38Z 2005-04-06T22:55:38Z yellowcard in my head yesterday was fun. called in sick to work...yeahhhh those fake migranes are a bitch. stace came over for what seemed to be just a friendly visit. it wasn't until she began raiding my closet that her real motives were unearthed! its not that she gives a hoot about me, just about scoping out the clothes! haha anyways i had the grand idea of going rollerblading, something i hadnt attempted since probably 7th grade...but with these freshly paved roads in the hood i just couldnt resist. so we rolled out (literally har har har) and then washed the taz-mobile. sheesh was that a task...who knew that car was white underneath all that filth!? anyways a few original babs and taz raps later stace was off and i was left to conquer the stat hw. seeing as he was stopping by chris' i chatted with mj for a bit and then finished my work. it was bomb.<br /><br />ugh tomorrow the lang mock! 4 hoursssssss of essays and rhetorical analysis!!!!!!!!!!! im sure to keel over before its done! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:23578 2005-04-04T18:53:03Z 2005-04-04T18:53:03Z the postal service-against all odds ugggghhhh i cant deciiiiiiide! ipod and some other things or surfboard? help me. oh for my birthday btw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:23538 2005-04-03T23:44:58Z 2005-04-03T23:44:58Z ryan adams All of these people in my life, well they seem so in love<br />Well, I am not<br />Memorizing my shoes in a cigarette shop<br />Does anybody want to take me home?<br />Does anybody want to take me home?<br />I'm kinda lonely, will you take me home?<br />Of course you will<br />Of course you won't urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:22871 2005-04-01T04:46:38Z 2005-04-01T04:46:38Z ryan adams what a shitty past couple of days.<br /><br />what a shitty break actually. all ive done is be sick, work, work, work, work, and get in trouble. woooooooooohooooooo!!!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:22576 2005-03-27T19:28:23Z 2005-03-27T19:28:23Z my chemical romance so yey! ive got 175 buckaroos! new jeans here i come! <br> <br> thursday night rocked, i loved it, watching all the tension and crazy mix of people! it was great.<br> <br> &nbsp;friday and saturday i slept all day and worked all night cuz ive been sick :( i think im getting over it though! thank god!!! sick on spring break=pathetic. <br> <br> today im going to "dinner" at like 3 with the g-rents and then hangin out with avsy! yyyeaaahhh!<br> <br> <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">&nbsp;i miss you.</span> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:22402 2005-03-23T20:49:59Z 2005-03-23T20:49:59Z jimmy eat world-just watch the fireworks aaaaaaaaaaaarhajskhdasjdksajdksajdklsajdksjalkdasjklda; you suck.<br /><br />i hate this weather. gimme some sunnnn!! lord knows i need it, i look like a ghost. whoa a cop just drove down my street, how random is that? ive never seen a cop in my neighborhood before. ok anyways, i cant wait for break, i really just need some time to be stress free. im so unmotivated as far as school goes, just ready for this year to be over! i wanna go on a trip...<br /><br /><br />What's wrong baby, don't they treat you like they should?<br />Did you take 'em for it?<br />Every penny that you could?<br />We once walked out on the beach and once I almost touched your<br />hand.<br />Oh how I dreamed to finally say such things then only to<br />pretend.<br />Don't you know I'm thinkin', drivin' 405 past midnight.<br />You know I miss you.<br />Don't you know that I miss you?<br />Ninth and Ash on a Tuesday night.<br />I would write to you from a museum mile, toast to you:<br />your whisper, your smile.<br />Up the stairs at the Weatherford, a ghost each place I hide.<br />If you don't don't know, why would you say so?<br />Would you mean this please if it happens?<br />If you don't know, why would you say so?<br />Won't you get your story straight.<br />If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?<br />And I need this now more than I ever did.<br />If you don't well, honey, then you don't.<br />I left you waiting, at the least could we be friends?<br />Should have never started, ain't that the way it always ends?<br />On my life I'll try today, there's so much I've felt I should<br />say, but.<br />Even if your heart would listen, doubt I could explain.<br />If you don't don't know, why'd you say so?<br />Would you mean this please if it happens?<br />If you don't know, why would you say so?<br />Won't you get your story straight.<br />If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?<br />Cause I need this now more than I ever did.<br />If you don't well, honey, then you don't.<br />So here we are now, a sip of wine a sip of water.<br />Someday maybe, maybe someday we'll be smarter.<br />And I'm sorry that I'm such a mess, I drank all my money could<br />get and,<br />took everything you let me have and then I never loved you back.<br />If you don't don't know, why would you say so?<br />Would you mean the please if it happens?<br />If you don't know, why would you say so?<br />Won't you get your story straight?<br />If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?<br />Cause I need this now yeah need this, need this.<br />If you don't well, honey, then you don't<br />And if you don't well, honey, then you don't<br />If you don't know, honey, honey, then you don't. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:22048 2005-03-21T00:17:57Z 2005-03-21T00:17:57Z the postal service-brand new colony ...as you're lying there drifting off to sleep<br /><br /><br />home sweet home. finally! we all agreed without hesitation that if someone offered us a million dollars to live in indiana we would never do it.<br /><br />so annie and her two friends came home with us for a week for their spring break. it'll be a full house for a while, but theyre fun.<br /><br />one of my biggest pet peeves is filing nails, and now i have to sit here and file all of mine because when i got them done they came out too long. uuuuhh its like nails on a chalkboard!!<br /><br />so spring break is gonna ball. i can't wait. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:21821 2005-03-17T01:18:38Z 2005-03-17T01:18:38Z teenage dirtbag-wheatus So we got into good old Indiana at 1ish today and drove up to Purdue. It's cold and ugly and I really don't miss living up north at all. Of all things to forget I had to forget my phone charger...so when it dies in about a day or so it will suck. Anyways, we went and visited Annie at her hotel and it's a miracle that we actually for once got a hotel nicer than she did. Everytime we go to a meet the team stays in the nicest possible hotel in the area but we beat her this time! Muahaha, the rentals and I are extremely (and pathetically) proud of this. So Annie is good, she looks really good, lost a lot of weight. I'm bored today but the meet starts tomorrow so it will be fun then. Annie cracks me up, here's what she says to my dad: "I need to go shopping with you because jeans make the man and yours are just not cuttin it." lol. Oh sheesh and then at dinner, I forget how this came up, but my dad tells us a story of his uncle and how he was a hobo and traveled around on trains and busses and then how one day they got a call saying that he had gotten hit by a semi while hitchiking on the side of the highway and died! And as my dad tells this morbid story he cracks up! He thought it was hillarious! I think we may have found the source of my "heartlessness." I can't wait for spring break to just sit on the beach and get really tan all week. By the by, if you were wondering why I'm typing with such precise punctuation and capitalization it's because I'm bored and this way it takes up more time lol.<br /><br /><br />She said "I got two tickets to Iron Maiden baby<br />Come with me friday, don't say maybe<br />I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby, like you" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:21678 2005-03-14T17:28:43Z 2005-03-14T17:28:43Z random songs in my head so this weekend of endless work and SATs finally paid off last night. me ava mj sloane nat nick helen mike and his girlfriend went to the new found glory concert. so me ava and sloane road in mjs car and boy was that an experience. everything that possibly could have gone wrong did. first sloane looses his phone, then we get lost 47980189 times. when we finally get to st pete we have no idea where janus landing is. so as we drive aimlessly around we ask people if they know and one person in the group points one way and another person points the total opposite way!! hahah that was so funny. but anyways being lost was fun and we got to miss most of the boring openers so it turned out for the best. on the way home me and ava played imitate mj in the back seat. which was a barrel of fun haha. anyways thats that and i had a really fun time! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:21442 2005-03-10T02:50:06Z 2005-03-10T02:50:06Z TEN Random Things About Me:<br />1: i want to share things with someone who really means a lot to me<br />2: Celebration, that whole Disney town, really scares me<br />3: i daydream a lot and hardly ever dream<br />4: if i wasn't so lazy i could have a lot of things that i want<br />5: i was born in chicago<br />6: people think i'm heartless, but im actually really sensitive<br />7: other than my family, my friends are the most important thing in my life<br />8: music affects my moods<br />9: songs with really stupid lyrics bother me, otherwise i love pretty much all music<br />10: black range rovers give me orgasms<br /><br />NINE Ways To Win My Heart:<br />1: go out of your way to be nice, just because you want to<br />2: make me laugh<br />3: let me be myself<br />4: remember the little things i say or do<br />5: write me a song<br />6: make a tiny gesture that really shows you care<br />7: know exactly what i need when i need it<br />8: call for no reason<br />9: don't try too hard, just be yourself<br /><br />EIGHT things I want to do before I die:<br />1: change someone's life<br />2: live in europe<br />3: find true love<br />4: reach my goals<br />5: own a horse<br />6: give a piano concert<br />7: swim in every ocean<br />8: go sky diving<br /><br />SEVEN ways to annoy me:<br />1: writing all over your profile how much you love your boyfriend<br />2: be way too enthusiastic/nice/fake<br />3: blatantly lie<br />4: not having your own opinion<br />5: canoodle with tyler while i make vain attempt after vain attempt to go to my locker<br />6: say you love a band or song because someone you like does<br />7: laugh really loud at things that aren't funny<br /><br />SIX things I wish I was:<br />1: rich so i had a bunch of really nice clothes<br />2: more motivated<br />3: living in the 20s<br />4: able to play the drums<br />5: on the beach in figi(or greece)with someone i love<br />6: good at singing<br /><br />FIVE things I'm afraid of:<br />1: being unsuccessful<br />2: not finding the right person<br />3: not making the most of opportunities<br />4: regretting my decisions<br />5: insane people<br /><br />FOUR favorite items in my room:<br />1: my bed<br />2: my pictures of friends<br />3: my closet<br />4: my books<br /><br />THREE things I do everyday:<br />1: wish that i could lay in bed all day<br />2: hope to find someone to like<br />3: smile<br /><br />TWO things I want to do right now:<br />1: get a tattoo<br />2: jump around belting out a song<br /><br />ONE person I want to see right now:<br />1: anyone of my friends urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:21240 2005-03-08T23:59:16Z 2005-03-09T00:00:44Z jack johnson-no other way i always procrastinate and then end up getting all stressed out and having to cram everything into like one hour of nonstop work. its not good but apparently i dont care enough to change it...oh well!<br /><br />i think im going to cut my hair...i want to grow it longer but the length its at right now it really bothering me and i dont have the patience to wait for it to grow. my OCD for changing my hair has been supressed for a long time and im really starting to get those urges again to just like do something extreme and totally change it...but who knows.<br /><br />oooo chinese food has just arrived!! i love it.<br /><br /><br /><br />I'm sure you always feel my eyes on you... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boomigturbyfrnd:20980 2005-03-06T20:46:26Z 2005-03-06T20:46:26Z new found glory-i don't wanna know friday after school jill, megan, stacy and i went to international. i love shopping. needless to say i came back with about 75 cents but at least i got some clothes! as we ate dinner we were approached by some guys and of course jill and stacy comence to learn of their life story as megan and i sit back and laugh. stacy tells them that we are meeting up with our lesbian lovers and jill says, "yeah, kourtney with a K." hahaha it was so random and funny. after they left we asked where that came from and shes just like "what? it sounds like a lesbain name!" i love those girls.<br /><br />friday night hung out at avas with a few fun people and had daquiris and mimosas (my personal favorite!) me and avs went home and then to mjs till the wee hours of the morning.<br /><br />saturday during the day was the best. after getting panera and watching friends as we ate, me and avs busted out the blender and made pina coladas and layed out. it was so relaxing and perfect. leah, nicole, chels, mj and his friends joined later, which is always fun!<br /><br />after getting off babysitting, calling avs, and her telling me "theres sooo many people here" i knew it was trouble. met up with leah and we headed over with the intention of regulating....which never happened. after being mad for about 20 minutes at how all these people had gotten in, i decided it was time to drink ari's champagne. only the dimwit had put it in the freezer and it was reduced to a single solid block. we opened it anyways and frantically tried to drink it as it spewed out the top, which didn't work too well, we just ended up all wet. anyways it was some shots later that i realized we had to go home so in about 2 minutes we managed to get everyone out. i thought ava had actually pulled it off this time until i came to the end of ibis where three cop cars were blocking the road. after talking to them (!) they let me go and that is why i will never drink and drive again.<br /><br /><br /><br />First comes heavy breathing,<br />Staring at the ceiling.<br />What will happen next?<br />I don't wanna know.